Picking up tabs

          One of the first things I was told when I got clean was to make a doctor's appointment and have a complete physical. It's important that we ascertain how much damage we have done to our bodies through drug use. Other than some memory loss that I suffered, I did not suffer directly from any of the substances I used. It seems; however, that I caused harm to my body through neglect.

          The only time I went to the doctor was when I was sick or hurt. Usually I was too busy trying to cop the good stuff to worry about any warnings given by the doctor. I didn't eat right, didn't excercise or meditate. Today these things seem paramount today. I has taken me five years to have the physical. This week I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, diabetes and my triglycerides were more than double what they are supposed to be.

         I suffer from depression, high blood pressure and have joint and back pain. My doctor assures me that by losing weight and becoming more active, most, if not all of my symptoms will improve, if not disappear completely. My excessive weight and poor choices in fatty foods and sweets are killing me as much as the drugs did.

       I need to make a lifestyle change and have no clue how to start. I know the basics. I need to get active, and watch what I eat. I need to cut out sweets and I am not supposed to eat more that 150g of carbs per day. The problem is that I LOVE pasta, bread, rice, potatoes and  I hate veggies. I really can't stand them. Chocolate is good sent from the Gods. Am I supposed to deny something Heaven sent? Apparently so.

        I know that God will not ask me to do anything that he doesn't give me the tools to do. I am going to have to turn this area of my life over to God and to the program. It gives new meaning of "apply these principles in all our affairs." I am going to have to take it one day at a time, pray, talk with my sponsor and work my steps.