Staying Still

       I was on my way to a meeting the other day and I was talking to my sponsor about the fact that we are both looking for jobs. I was wound up and thinking of all of the places I could send my resume and wondering how we are going to survive financially. My sponsor told me she was worried about her situation because she knows she is in the care of. She knows God will see to all of her needs and place her where she needs to be. Her advice to me? "Be still." I need to allow God to work in my life and quit getting in His way. Things are already all worked out. It's okay on the otherside and all I have to do is take God's hand and walk through it.

      I have tried to be still. Don't get me wrong; I am not sitting on the couch eating bon bons waiting for God to deliver a job to my front door. I am doing my part. I am putting in applications and getting my resume out there. I am showing up for interviews and asking God to let my inner light shine. True surrender is putting in the footwork and allowing God to determine the outcome. All I need to do is find acceptance with the outcome.

       When I  look back over my life I know that God has never abandoned me. He has been here all along. He never tested me or punished me. When I  or someone else in my life acted on self-will and it caused me pain God carried me through those times and brought me comfort. God will do for me what I can't do for myself, but He will not do for me what I can do for myself. I have never done without what I needed. I may do without some things I want sometimes, but all of my basic needs have always been met. I have prayed for things I thought I wanted and then had to pray for them to be removed because I couldn't handle them. I need to let God bring me to whatever it is He knows I can handle.