Monday, May 7, 2012

Being Unfair

    I was thinking about last night's post and how unfair I have been. I tend to portray my live-in in negative light. I have never extolled his virtues. That's what I will do here. Part of living with the disease of addiction is that I have skewed perceptions of things.

     This man loves me unconditionally. He likes takes very good to 15 year old daughter to the point of spoiling her. He cooks, he cleans and he does all of the yard work (including planting flowers) and he does all of the vehicle maintenance. He works very hard and gives me most of his check. When I lost my job a few weeks ago, he picked up a second job without complaint. Okay, with very little complaint. I come and go as I please and he never questions me.

     He really is a wonderful man in so many ways, if you exclude the phobia of intimacy. The question I have to ask myself is "Is all of this worth giving up intimacy for the unforseeable future?" I will continue to pray for that answer

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