I went to a meeting last night and I made the white chip walk of shame. It was the most humbling thing I have ever had to do. Thank God for my network who stood tall with me and hugged me when I picked it up. They gave me the strength and the courage that I needed.
I have found that word spreads quickly through the rooms when one of us makes a bad decision. I have been fielding calls and hugs all day. The humbling thing about a relapse is having to sit there and hear all of the lectures. I am feeling angry today. I am angry at the people who have more time than me and angry at myself for backing myself into a corner I couldn't get out of clean.
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